vent-MIZUKIMOODYNESS

I hope you find Someone that can make you smile Someone that can love you as much as I did I had forgotten what was important It was always there You where always there Its like I forgot But its fine I enjoy this now I just hope you find someone less forgetful Promise me this selfish wish That you find yourself That you know what you want So that when you find this someone They can fall deeply for you As I did for you I hope they can give you a roof over your head That they give you children Comfort Warmth That they can give you a million more stars Than what I gave you Ill stay as your friend Ill be there for you

From every star that I've made We were laughing We were being our own way When I tickled you You would scream at me We where in love In love Once upon a dream                                                                             So what's happen? So wh

If you touch one hair on her head I will not forgive you My hands grow numb Stopping you is my job I told you to get away But I've known your target For years I will tear at the holes That you've created so long ago How dare you How dare you pull on her like this? The full circled moon Is not your playground Its circled around again Damn you How could you I swear in my heart I will keep her from you

Im kinda sore its weird i dont feel it at all those words she said my heart suddenly locked away jumped up and grabbed the key it was weird its very sore will these up and downs never end? i laugh to myself what the hell am i feeling anymore really what the hell am i feeling? Im sore from head to toe my plastic frown stays forever sore goodbye good luck where my last words i chuckle yeah im pretty sore im getting tired of the same sores im pretty tired of everything maybe i should just wither away like the water in the waves Im getting sick her excuses lets talk this over later Im sorry so sorry shut up your

I chuckle what a feeling in my chest the burning sensation the warmth Im not sure how to explain this happiness this never ending pumping of my blood this beat in my heart I really cant explain the smile curving my lips in a twitch the traced circles on eachothers palms can i really tell you this laughter that escapes my lips the sigh of excitement is it love? or is it more I cant explain it I really cant is this really love? its the only way i can explain it is it love yes Its love I am in love

I wish I spoke words of sweetness Instead of honesty My words of honesty are as bitter as a snake bite Or worse Im not really good in of for someone so sweet So gentle Like a porcelain doll My doll But I feel guilty Guilty for my words She deserves much better Than this snake bite wound I have cracked her pretty face Am so guilty for it all I suck at my support I seem to have no thought in my mind When I answer questions Maybe im just a huge ass Or maybe im just a observant ass I don't know which ones worse Im not sure what o do Only thing I've been feeling lately is guilt I should do something about my honesty That

Ive Become unsettled I have become a wreck I feel dirty I feel filthy I feel discouraged Chewed on constantly I just don't stop it Im wandering aimlessly not sure what to touch Im scared But my feelings they don't show it at all I say sorry so many times I don't even know how many times I feel sad I feel angry Im hurt Im constantly hurt But I stay silent Im scarred The pain it hurts So very bad But its ok right? Im alright It will all pass Right? God Please Someone help me

Don't doubt our relationship don't doubt are love Don't doubt me Don't doubt yourself Don't doubt things Because it hurts you the most It hurts me too I miss you a lot I draw you everyday I write poems about you I think about you When we talk where silent now You tell me there's not much to talk What are you hiding from me What am I hiding from you You're so beautiful I really care about you So please don't wander away It's lonely Will any word I say get to you? It's so sad I feel super sad When you say we can't speak What do you want dear? What do you want from me? Have I ignored you too much have I neglected you

I lay in bed thinking of the past years How I was raised by you And how you came to be And so I think These final words of mines Of what you have done for me Of what you have given me The love The passion The courage The hope You where always there When I was so very alone If it wasn't for you I would of never met her I would of never drawn my hand for help I think of the others too Of she How she loved you so much How she loved her so much How she despised me most of the time But still cared in of I want to say sorry to her For causing her so much pain I want to say that I loved her too I loved you both and